love is a manny splendor thing. But than it turns into a splendor-blender. Even though the word itself is tossed around loosely, the actual substance of love cannot be handled bare-handed. I shield myself from it. It takes you over, makes you oblivious to your surroundings. It is the hardest drug to quit. Addictive as hell, love can possess you. Coming down from love can leave you in dark places completely alone, no matter who you go to for comfort and recovery, it's only a quick fix and won't last long. The best recovery is to quit love altogether. Realize who you are before you move on. You change so much as a person when you are in love. So much as to forget who you are when it's over. I can honestly say that in the last two years I have learned more about myself and how I function under the influence of love. I have distanced myself and observed others who are living in love. The idea doesn't appeal to me as it use to. Nobody wants to be alone, but I think that once you are able to break that complex of needing someone there for you, only then will you be able to find the right person to fall in with. For now, live for yourself before you try and live for another. Time heals all and time will tell you what you really want in life.

yes. so much to write and I know you arn't all that interested so i'll sum it up, 2 weeks in a nut shell: well it actually feels like I've been living in a nut shell or at leas for the last couple days. A sweaty nut shell. we've been in houston for 3 days since we ended the Poison the well dates and we start the Alesana tour on sunday. I never liked girls with southern accents so hopefully the next couple days in texas will change my mind. I've wanted to keep a livejournal of everyday, mostely for myself since I only have a few LJ friends, but my old LJ is frozen back in time around valentines day, but only on my computer. so I made this new one and when I log into it on my computer it still goes to my old one. i dont know. i've come to hate my computer. i'll try and keep up on this. to all my friends i miss you.